Grandmothers letters
Dear Hazel.
These are letters that I wrote last week while with your mom and dad but like many of the others I am entering them on your page to always have them.
Mornings are really difficult for me. Today I slept the longest I have slept since i arrived in Boston but I am still having a hard time getting out of bed. Usually I would walk many miles but I don't even feel like doing that. Today is the 1 week anniversary of your birth. I hope we get to bring you home today. Your dad's mom is going home today. I think it will be less stressful for him because your dad needs to stay busy doing stuff and talking to people to help him cope about losing you but then he also worries about his mom. Your dad cares allot about others and his very large family. So when you see him running around doing all kinds of things, it's not that he's not thinking about you, it's that he won't get through the day if he stops and thinks about you not being here. Your mom likes to see him busy because she knows it is so therapeutic for him and it gives her a sign that he is going to be ok.
She also likes that little chores are getting done!! Your mom on the other hand, has a hard time doing stuff. She did allot of weeding and baking when she first came home but she found out it was too much for her. I think she was trying to go throughout her day as if none of this bad dream happened and it would all go away but instead she was exhausted and didn't have the strength to deal with the pain. So now she does little things. Yesterday, she had her friend cut her hair. For the first time she was able to get out and also talk to her friend about you. I was so happy to see that she could do that and I think she was too! Boy, did your mom look beautiful!!! She hadn't gotten her hair cut or dyed since March because it wasn't safe with you in her belly. Your mom didn't want to go home after her hair appointment which was good and bad. Good, because it took allot to get her to finally leave the house and she was doing so well and feeling somewhat like herself again but home is where she needs to get comfortable being like she always had before. We will take more outings so she knows that home will be a safe place again. Home is where you are coming today I hope. I don't know how your parents feel but for me, having you home completes the circle of love and you will be back where it all started and with your mom and dad. You aren't coming home the way we ever imagined, and use the beautiful crib or the cool changing table your parents made with your grandfather but you will be home. Love you, Grams
These are letters that I wrote last week while with your mom and dad but like many of the others I am entering them on your page to always have them.
Mornings are really difficult for me. Today I slept the longest I have slept since i arrived in Boston but I am still having a hard time getting out of bed. Usually I would walk many miles but I don't even feel like doing that. Today is the 1 week anniversary of your birth. I hope we get to bring you home today. Your dad's mom is going home today. I think it will be less stressful for him because your dad needs to stay busy doing stuff and talking to people to help him cope about losing you but then he also worries about his mom. Your dad cares allot about others and his very large family. So when you see him running around doing all kinds of things, it's not that he's not thinking about you, it's that he won't get through the day if he stops and thinks about you not being here. Your mom likes to see him busy because she knows it is so therapeutic for him and it gives her a sign that he is going to be ok.
She also likes that little chores are getting done!! Your mom on the other hand, has a hard time doing stuff. She did allot of weeding and baking when she first came home but she found out it was too much for her. I think she was trying to go throughout her day as if none of this bad dream happened and it would all go away but instead she was exhausted and didn't have the strength to deal with the pain. So now she does little things. Yesterday, she had her friend cut her hair. For the first time she was able to get out and also talk to her friend about you. I was so happy to see that she could do that and I think she was too! Boy, did your mom look beautiful!!! She hadn't gotten her hair cut or dyed since March because it wasn't safe with you in her belly. Your mom didn't want to go home after her hair appointment which was good and bad. Good, because it took allot to get her to finally leave the house and she was doing so well and feeling somewhat like herself again but home is where she needs to get comfortable being like she always had before. We will take more outings so she knows that home will be a safe place again. Home is where you are coming today I hope. I don't know how your parents feel but for me, having you home completes the circle of love and you will be back where it all started and with your mom and dad. You aren't coming home the way we ever imagined, and use the beautiful crib or the cool changing table your parents made with your grandfather but you will be home. Love you, Grams
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