Let Me Tell You About Your Great Grandparents

Dear Hazel, 

Yesterday Pop pop and I packed up a picnic lunch and went to visit his parents, your great grandparents. We moved them from Ithaca , NY, where pop pop and grams were married to a place closer to us because they needed a lot of help now that they are older. I have learned a lot from them! And also from my mom, your other great grandmother who died years ago. Of course we learn a lot from our parents as we grow up and they care for our every need but what I didn't know was that our parents would need our help to live when they got older. They have reverted back to children in many ways and need help for all of their daily needs. We are learning as we go as no one told us that we would need to take care of our parents. You see, parents know that they are to care for and love their children unconditionally and we continue to do that even when our children become adults. Sometimes our adult children need us more at times like when you were born. I couldn't get to your mom fast enough! She needed me and I so needed to be there to help her the way moms do! This is the part that makes your mom sad because she so wanted to be there for you like I am for her. I continue to tell her that for that short time your mom was there for you and cared for you for 33 weeks but then for an reasons unknown you were taken from her. I am so happy that I am able to be there for your mom but I now know that someday she will have to be there for me! Your mom doesn't like me to talk about this and always tells me that I am not old! Shh it will be our little secret!  I have been taking notes from caring for your great grandparents to pass along to your mom and aunt Kelsey so they aren't taken by surprise like pop pop and I were. 

Your great grandparents asked about you and although I told them, they really didn't understand what happened. That's OK because I am still trying to figure out what happened.  I still wake up asking why?  I dreamt all night about you. last night. I can't really ever remember my dreams but I woke up seeing little bits of what I had been dreaming about and it was you. I don't know if the why will ever be answered but I will continue to look for it to make sense of why we lost you before we ever got to know you.

Love you Hazel

Love Grams