The day my heart broke
To Hazel Rose, my granddaughter that I got to hold but didn't get to keep. I did get to keep you in my thoughts every day and some days you were more present than others. Today you have been with me all day because this is the day, a year ago, your mom called me at my office in tears to tell me that they could not hear your little heart beating. This is the day my heart broke.
You know how the rest of the story goes as I wrote to you many times last year but Hazel Rose I need you to know that you have not been forgotten and never will be. Many tears have been shed and continue to shed as they are at this very moment but know that they are because we didn't get the time to watch you grow into the amazing woman that I know you would have been How do I know this? Because you have the strongest, most amazing mom ever. There isn't a day that goes by that she doesn't think about you. But I don't need to tell you that because you shine down on her every day. You continue to show your face with those amazing sunsets. Please don't stop!
Tomorrow will be the day that you entered this world a year ago and it was a year ago that I saw more strength that I ever knew anyone could have. That anyone I am talking about is your mom. Tomorrow, she will show that strength with your dad at her side as she brings blankets to the hospital for other babies like you. This will be hard but they know that every day there is a Hazel baby being born and the blanket that gave your mom such comfort will be there for those moms and dads.
You never got to meet your aunt Kelsey, your moms sister, but I told you all about her. Losing you has been so hard for her. She and your mom had so many plans for you and your cousin Hayden. We talk about you all the time to Hayden. I wear your hand print around my neck and she forever is grabbing it but she is gentle when I tell her to be careful.
Next week, your brother Hudson is coming. I know you have been watching over him and I know you will be with us to help bring him to us. He will be in the room that was meant for you but I know you are good about sharing and you will be his guardian angel forever.
Hazel Rose, You will Never, Never be forgotten
I love you so
Love Grams
You know how the rest of the story goes as I wrote to you many times last year but Hazel Rose I need you to know that you have not been forgotten and never will be. Many tears have been shed and continue to shed as they are at this very moment but know that they are because we didn't get the time to watch you grow into the amazing woman that I know you would have been How do I know this? Because you have the strongest, most amazing mom ever. There isn't a day that goes by that she doesn't think about you. But I don't need to tell you that because you shine down on her every day. You continue to show your face with those amazing sunsets. Please don't stop!
Tomorrow will be the day that you entered this world a year ago and it was a year ago that I saw more strength that I ever knew anyone could have. That anyone I am talking about is your mom. Tomorrow, she will show that strength with your dad at her side as she brings blankets to the hospital for other babies like you. This will be hard but they know that every day there is a Hazel baby being born and the blanket that gave your mom such comfort will be there for those moms and dads.
You never got to meet your aunt Kelsey, your moms sister, but I told you all about her. Losing you has been so hard for her. She and your mom had so many plans for you and your cousin Hayden. We talk about you all the time to Hayden. I wear your hand print around my neck and she forever is grabbing it but she is gentle when I tell her to be careful.
Next week, your brother Hudson is coming. I know you have been watching over him and I know you will be with us to help bring him to us. He will be in the room that was meant for you but I know you are good about sharing and you will be his guardian angel forever.
I love you so
Love Grams
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